By Faith C Smith
I would like the share an encounter with Jesus Christ that changed my entire life. I got saved of a drug overdose Sept 25th 2013 & this was the first day that God spoke to me when I didn’t even believe there was a god and I became a changed person. I tried to go back into my old lifestyle and He would not let me. All of a sudden there was conviction inside of me that wasn’t there before. Or It was there at one time but my conscience got seared so deeply with a hot iron that I had no conscience anymore. Until God. My whole life changed for the next couple years and I am saved, however I had many things in my life that I needed to change that was so wrong in my life. I dated this guy Anthony, very tall man. We had been dating for a year and half and we talked about getting married. Now that I look back I have no idea why we would think of such a horrible idea because we brought the worst out of each other. We were both broken people who collided in a mess together. But we would pray with each other everyday together and we would actually see some amazing things through prayer. I remember hanging out with him one night and I felt something really strong in my spirit that wasn’t right. I felt like he was endangering me even though nothing happened. We were just hanging out. But it was like the Holy Spirit was warning me something about him was not right and his intentions towards me were not right. I kept ignoring this feeling that I kept having inside of me. Also at this time I was working for a poker room as a cocktail waitress and bartender in Downtown Dallas which was completely illegal. Let’s just say I saw a lot of things went down in this place. Everything you could imagine that was illegal was going on in this place. The food and drinks were illegal, there was drugs and strippers would come into this place once in a while, there were a lot of fighting and I saw someone almost die of a drug overdose. People were constantly paranoid about the cops showing up. There were times I felt so much anxiety about even getting caught in this place. But I was there because of the money. I was making anywhere form $1-2k a night. I needed the money. The Holy Spirit told me to leave this place. I felt hardcore conviction about being in this place but I kept saying “but the money”. For me this was actually a normal place because I was used to hanging out with those kind of people. I kept getting a pull from the Holy Spirit and I wanted to leave but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. So what happens? Things started escalating. Really fast! One night at the poker room there was this doctor who put $5k in bills on the table in front of me to go back into the hotel room with him. I was like no I am not about that life so I put the money back in his face and tried to leave. He would not let me go. He even shut the door so that I would not leave without him. I literally fought with this guy to get out. Finally he let me go but he was trying so hard to persuade me. I left that night feeling grateful that other things didn’t happen. Shortly after that I got this deep feeling in my spirit that my boyfriend was cheating on me. I was trying to get ahold of him and there was no answer. I started praying hardcore that night asking the Holy Spirit to convict him & make him sick to his stomach only if he isn’t doing anything he is supposed to be doing. 10 min. later he txted me saying “I feel so sick to my stomach all of a sudden.” Let’s just say I was pissed off. I was cussing him out. I told him, “you got caught by the Holy Spirit!” I knew the Holy Spirit gave me a sign that he cheated on me. This was the darkest time in my life. I had never had a man destroy me like the way this guy did. He really did break my heart and this was the first time I thought about going back into the lifestyle I used to have before God changed me, which was way worse than the life I was living during this time. I blocked Anthony because I knew he was cheating on me. I got on the phone with my friend Kurt. I remember crying and cussing and saying a bunch of things I shouldn’t have said. I remember saying “I am just gonna go screw some random guy.” I remember thinking, “What in the world am I saying right now?” I never have those crazy thoughts and I thought it was strange that I was thinking such things. Then here comes some guy that I meet & he was offering to take me on a 3 thousand dollar shopping spree in Miami and to stay there at the W Hotel. He made it seem like he just wanted to hang out and have fun. The first thought I had was “Get me out of this place!” I wanted to go somewhere that I would get my mind off of this heart break. He was about to book this plane ticket. Two days later after I prayed to God to convict Anthony. Something really miraculous happens that I would have never imagined. Anthony sends me this shocking email tell me about what he had experienced the night before…
Here is what the emails said…
So after I got these emails I felt like death was all around me. I couldn’t believe what he saw. We were on the phone for 5 hours that night and did nothing but cry. He had told me that Jesus Christ shows up at his bedside table next to him in person. When Jesus shows up He said, “I have been convicting you the last 2 days and you have not been listening to me so I had to show up myself in person. This was not a good lovely dovey talk with Jesus. This was a very convicting and most disturbing thing that we have ever encountered. Jesus was so perfect in His majesty and He was radiating light and authority all around Him. He had a sash on His thigh that says “The King of kings & Lord of lords.” Which reminded me of the verse:
16 “And He has on His robe and on His thigh a name written:
KING OF KINGS AND
LORD OF LORDS.”
I showed Anthony this picture and I asked him if this is what Jesus looked like. He was stunned at this picture I showed him and he said, “That is exactly what He looked like!” This was the picture:
So Anthony goes on about what Jesus showed him and he was really scared to tell me. He told me that Jesus revealed that if we would have gotten married it would be such a horrible marriage. He put His hand in the air and a cloud shows up with a TV screen of all the things that will take place in the near future if we do not repent of our actions. What I am about to share with you is the most detrimental thing I ever heard in my life.
The first scene Jesus showed was when I went to go on this trip to Miami. Jesus says that if I go on this trip to Miami this is what is going to happen to me. Anthony saw this vision of exactly what this guy looked like. He even knew his name which was shocking to me. Anthony did not know that I was about to go on this trip with this guy. There is no way he would have known what I was about to do. Unless he had an encounter with Jesus Christ. Jesus showed him that this guy put drugs in my drink and he raped me until I was dead. He saw me in the W Hotel. He saw that whenever I died this Jezebel evil spirit was rejoicing over my body whenever I died. Very disturbing.
The second scene Jesus showed him was when I was at my job in the poker room. Anthony has never even set foot inside that poker room so he has no idea what it even looks like. He described exactly everything in this room that he saw. He saw that it was late at night I was getting my tip money for the night and this tattooed guy takes my money. I started cussing this guy out demanding him to give me back my money. So he started beating me up. Then he started raping me and a gang of other black guys came in and raped me also until I was dead. Then after I died they threw me in the dumpster. Then he saw again, this Jezebel evil spirit started rejoicing over my body again so happy that I am finally dead.
The Third scene Jesus showed whenever I was older like 50 years old. I wasn’t pretty anymore and I was depressed. He revealed that I put my identity in my looks. My whole life I lived for was based on my looks. Whenever I didn’t have that anymore I felt like I was used up and I was no good anymore. So I decided to kill myself with medication and I overdosed on it. I was single and alone. I had nobody. And again this Jezebel evil spirit was rejoicing over my dead body so happy that she killed my destiny.
Then he begins to tell me that Jesus showed him when I was on the phone with my friend Kurt saying “I am going to screw some random guy” he said, “Whenever you were thinking those thoughts, that was not you that was speaking, that was the Jezebel evil spirit who was controlling you into saying those things.” I was completely shocked about that because I really thought those thoughts were my own thoughts. Anthony would not have known I would have had this conversation with my friend because I was in my room alone. I was suddenly remembering something whenever I had lunch with a random friend a couple months earlier. I was talking about this prostitute Jezebel from the Bible and he was like oh Jezebel is you. I felt insulted by what he said and asked again what he meant by that? He said that he saw the Jezebel evil spirit right beside my shoulder with me. I didn’t understand until I got this vision from Jesus. I did more research on this evil spirit and found out a lot! The Lord had revealed to me that this spirit is in my family generations and that this principality was trying to kill me. The Lord revealed to me that I was the Corrupt Church in Revelations.
The Corrupt Church
18 “‘These things says the Son of God, who has eyes like a flame of fire, and His feet like fine brass: 19 “I know your works, love, service, faith, and your patience; and as for your works, the last are more than the first.20 Nevertheless I have a few things against you, because you allow that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess, to teach and seduce My servants to commit sexual immorality and eat things sacrificed to idols.21 And I gave her time to repent of her sexual immorality, and she did not repent. 22 Indeed I will cast her into a sickbed, and those who commit adultery with her into great tribulation, unless they repent of their deeds.23 I will kill her children with death, and all the churches shall know that I am He who searches the minds and hearts. And I will give to each one of you according to your works.
24 “Now to you I say, as many as do not have this doctrine, who have not known the depths of Satan, as they say, I will put on you no other burden. 25 But hold fast what you have till I come.26 And he who overcomes, and keeps My works until the end, to him I will give power over the nations—27 ‘He shall rule them with a rod of iron;
They shall be dashed to pieces like the potter’s vessels’—as I also have received from My Father; 28 and I will give him the morning star.29 “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
The worst part of all of this is when Jesus was done showing all of this He says, “This is who she is, and this is the life she chose.” I felt like Jesus was betraying me. I remember thinking this is not the life I chose, this life chose me. I had to do some serious evaluation in my life. I didn’t even realize the person that I really was. This was all so real. I remember going to San Diego on a trip over Halloween weekend in 2016. We were reflecting on so many things in our lives. We did nothing but cry.
When I came back to Dallas in my bedroom I knew exactly what to do. Repent. Of everything. All my sexual sin and many other sins that I have done. I was screaming at the devil for hours. I renounced and repented of every single thing I could think of. I was addicted to masterbating, so I grabbed all my sex toys and I threw these expensive things away so dramatically. I said “I AM DONE!” I was done done done done. I went to go look for another job. I made so many vows that night saying I will NEVER be in sexual sin ever again. I told the Holy Spirit I was done with men. I said to God, If the Holy Spirit told me to be single for the rest of my life I was okay with that. This was the moment that changed my life forever. This was the moment I surrendered everything over to God. After screaming and throwing stuff away I sat there in my bed silently. And all of a sudden I get this open vision that I had never had before. I get these worship songs in my head which was strange because during this time I was not listening to worship music. I see a choir of angels with robes signing and rejoicing in heaven! We were worshiping together and it was like all of heaven knew who I was. We were connected to each other even though heaven was so far away above earth. After this vision and encounter ended I was really freaked out. I was sitting here wondering if I was going crazy. I had never seen such a thing before! So the first thing I do is look on google to see if anybody else has experience this type of thing before and what in the world just happened to me. What is interesting is the first thing that pops up on google is this bible verse:
The Parable of the Lost Sheep
15 Then all the tax collectors and the sinners drew near to Jesus to hear Him. 2 And the Pharisees and scribes complained, saying, “This Man receives sinners and eats with them.” 3 So He spoke this parable to them, saying: 4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it? 5 And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. 6 And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheepwhich was lost!’ 7 I say to you that likewise there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine just persons who need no repentance.
The Parable of the Lost Coin
8 “Or what woman, having ten silver coins, if she loses one coin, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? 9 And when she has found it, she calls her friends and neighbors together, saying, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found the piece which I lost!’ 10 Likewise, I say to you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”
I was so shocked! This is exactly what I saw! I felt Jesus speaking to me in this moment that was so amazing. I am still amazed how Jesus left all of His palace and kingdom in heaven in person just to come send a message to me to save my life. I am forever grateful that He would do that for only me. If He did not come in person to tell me these things that were going to happen to me in my life, I would be dead right now. Jesus wept for me. I couldn’t believe how much He cared about me to save my life. He revealed that this is not the life I was supposed to live. He spoke to me a couple months later saying that He is going to bless me with a husband and a new life. That He was gonna make all things new. But I had to completely turn from all my ways and leave everything I knew behind to get to this great calling that He has for me.
This change was not easy for me at all. Actually now that I have entered into covenant with God, the devil is now after me full fledged. Something strange started happening to me that I didn’t want to talk to people about. I started to get raped in my dreams overnight by demons. NOT EVEN JOKING. I could physically feel this thing penetrating me every night and I didn’t know who to talk to about this. I prayed every single night that the Lord would remove this thing from me! This was going on for about a month and half until one night I have this dream. In this dream God shows me what demon this is and where it came from. I see this guy that actually molested me when I was a little girl trying to do it again to me and all of a sudden he turns into this huge lion demon. I knew at that moment that I am not fighting against people (flesh and blood) but against principalities and darkness in heavenly places. This was a huge sexual lion demon that came from a generational curse from my family bloodline. I was in this house of bondage which was the house I grew up in and this lion told me that he owned me. I did not question him as I see that he was way stronger than me. However, I had a second thought, I was disturbed at the fact that I was okay that this lion owning me. So I called upon the name of the Lord and all of a sudden I was able to escape through the back door. When I escaped from this place, I was in paradise! It was incredible! I was able to fly on top of the mountains and the sunset was absolutely amazing! God then told me I had to go back into the house of bondage to fight this lion. So I got back and He provided me with nothing else but a small pocket knife. I remember thinking, “Umm God? I am going to need something much more powerful than this!” But the spirit of God rose up inside of me and I had to be smart. I went up to this lion and he started roaring at me and I remember thinking either this thing is going to kill me or I am going to kill it. There was no other option. Also I remember thinking, “Am I actually killing something right now?” I never killed anything in my life. This was so real to me. So I quickly went to the side to stab his main artery on his neck. There was blood everywhere. Victory was mine! Then, all these people came out of these rooms. I also saw my sister coming out of there. These were all the people who were stuck in bondage to that same lion demon! They were all just standing around. I told everybody, why are y’all sitting in this house on bondage? There is a paradise out there that y’all don’t even know about! So I was able to get all these people on boats to go towards the paradise. Then the dream ended. When I woke up I felt like 100 pounds lifted off my shoulders. I no longer had these rape encounters with demons anymore! I knew that I really did kill this demon in my dream and it was gone from me. The Lord spoke something to me. He had made it known to me that whenever I repent of all my sin, I am able to rise up in victory over all of my situations in life. It was time to me to get back everything the devil stole from me my whole life.